Friday, July 22, 2016

Other shoe to drop

Sometimes I just have this utter need to feel sad.
As if a switch is turn on inside me and I can’t stand feeling so light. As if I need to feel pain and sadness taking over. I might be having a good day, my mood might be far from dark, and yet I’m overcome by this suddenly need to change it… and so I need to go and find the darkest movies scenes I remember, re-read the saddest stories I’ve saved beforehand, listen to that impossibly depressing playlist.

I don’t know how to be a happy person, I’m always waiting for the other shoe to drop. So maybe that’s what it is, maybe unconsciously I’m trying to keep myself in check, keeping my guard up. 

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