Keep calm and carry on

It used to be different. She used to give in to it, let herself go down the rabbit hole, sink. But she knows better than to indulge herself in this now. She knows she has to fight it, push back, get a hold of herself. She can't avoid the panic, can't deny the fear, but she has a word on what she wants to do with it.

So today she's not going to hyperventilate. Today she's not going to cry. Today she's won't freak out. She's getting better at understanding herself, her reasons, so today instead of feeding the terror she'll calm herself down.

She'll tell herself: “Take it easy, you've got this”, because she knows it's true, because she knows nothing really has changed, it's not that big of a deal. She'll repeat that mantra the whole day if she has to. She'll keep convincing herself that people have her back, so she needs to step up for herself too.

She can do this!

And then, when the day is over she can once again see that she survived, that once again she outdid herself.