Cranky mode on

I can’t do things without thinking and it’s killing me.

Just wish I could switch off my brain sometimes. Be able to filter what is worth and what is not.

I hate changes, I hate to fail and make mistakes, and I can’t get better if I don’t know what’s expected of me. I’m no machine, they can’t expect me to blindly follow non-sense rules.

Sometimes you just have to do what you have to do, take it as it comes, no questions asked. It’s pointless, I know it’s pointless but it stresses me out because I need to understand the reason of things. I know I have to snap out of it, that I gain nothing in stressing about these sort of things, but I can’t help it. And that’s even more annoying… because I know I should know better than to let these things get to me  and yet here I am… tonight I’m cranky and I know it.